Who am I?
I’m a speaker, author, blogger, radio personality, publisher and pastor’s wife and I help women who’ve been wounded by the church or other traumatic life experiences, so they can learn to trust God again.
While I didn’t hear the gospel until I was 33 years old, God was calling me from an early age. I tried lots of avenues looking for Him, even though I had no idea what I was searching for. I’d never been to Vacation Bible School or heard Bible stories growing up. I was just trying to fill that empty hole inside my heart that was desperately longing for the love of Jesus. What I did, however, was accept every counterfeit that came along. Boys, drugs, alcohol, success, even the New Age and the cult of Scientology.
Childhood sexual abuse, abortion, domestic violence, workaholism, divorce.
Before Jesus, my life was a train wreck of relationships that were used to my best advantage, to get what I needed and wanted. The wounding in my life propelled me into an existence of being success-driven at all costs, numbing the pain by working hard, making lots of money, and receiving accolades from my peers.
All the trauma in my life affected me, but I was way too proud to admit it. 13 years after becoming a Christian I took a detour into deception that would cost me everything but my faith, and humble me in a powerful way.
After becoming the pioneer of the independent publishing movement in the Christian market, and building a wildly successful publishing company, I ended up publishing a book for, as I found out many years later, a wolf in sheep’s clothing. This “pastor” and his wife spent the next 12 years capturing me in their insidious web of deceit. This so-called church, really a cult, named “Sound Doctrine” where he ruled as the power broker, using scriptures out of context to manipulate, control, shame and shun me into submission, into silence, and into despair. He and his wife convinced me that the life changing Christianity I’d experienced in my first 13 years of being a follower of Jesus was all a fraud and I needed to start all over again, and fear for my salvation unless I took the words of the leader as gospel.
It took 12 years for me to muster up the courage to see the truth and walk away. But by then, I’d lost my marriage, my adult children, my house, my car, my company and my credit. The only thing left was a smoldering wick, and, praise God, He was faithful to fan into flame the faith I once knew and had allowed the enemy to rob from me.
Since that day, November 10, 2011, God has been restoring me, teaching me, admonishing me, and comforting me as I heal, and grow, and overcome the utter devastation in my life. He’s shown me the areas of my life that made me vulnerable to deception, and given me insight into the ways the enemy can make a lie look like the truth.
And through it all, He has always been faithful.
Even when I wasn’t. He was.
He began to teach me that He’s faithful whether our life is going well and we’re on the mountaintop or if we’re defeated in the valley of death and ready to give up. He is walking right beside us, longing to teach us from those dark and painful places, so that down the road we’ll be able to comfort someone else with that same comfort He gave us.
When I think of all He’s brought me through, and how faithful He has been — how He taught me to wait on Him, be still, and trust Him … all of that to end up experiencing His gracious and loving redemption and restoration brings me to tears.
I’ve been through some crazy hard times, but God has, through it all, proven Himself faithful and worthy of my trust. I love to look for Him in the mundane and the marvelous, and am always asking Him what lesson He has for me in everything I experience.
My Uncle Skeeter is a famous actor, James B. Sikking. Known for his part as Howard Hunter on Hill Street Blues and Doogie Howser’s Dad.
When I was 14 years old I owned 7 horses and showed most of them in horse shows across the country.
I absolutely LOVE Vizslas…also known as Hungarian Pointers…I’ve had 2 of them over the last 14 years and am addicted. They are THE COOLEST dogs!
I used to work for Helen Reddy, as an administrative assistant to her manager/husband.
My Grandma’s house overlooked the Santa Monica beach and originally belonged to the silent movie star, Mary Pickford.